I know everyone is wondering if I planned my escape route out of this black hole yet, and the answer is no. I know what you’re thinking, what am I waiting for right? Well, I’ve been thinking about it, and I realized that I would rather stay here to be completely honest.
After so much encouragement from everyone around me to just put myself out there and see what happens, I was almost ready to take the plunge and expose my attraction to him. But I had to finally admit to myself that my attraction to him was merely physical and not worth exploring. I know it is a terrible thing to say and very superficial, and I am not proud of that. That is why I am calling him a friend and actually meaning it now. He is a great person, but our philosophies and outlook on life are completely different. We are clearly unequally yoked. However, I overlooked that, because he is so darn handsome! So, when friends were giving me advice that would push me in the direction of possibly pursuing a relationship with him I had to be honest and admit that I actually didn’t want a relationship with him. I simply wanted, what I would like to call, a “flirtationship.”
So, I’m here! …in the friend zone. And I’m happy.