Throughout my entire life people have tried to place me in a box and label me based on very small pieces of my life. It is actually quite frustrating. A lot of people will see me in one setting and assume that makes up my entire life. For example, people will see me going to church and being very active with my relationship with God and assume I am a bible-thumping, holy-roller. Or they will see me out at a bar and think I am a wild child. Some will hear me joke with my friends and feel I can never take things seriously and remain professional. I am none of these things!
I am a human being. I am multi-dimensional. God created us to be complex, multi-layered creatures. We should never be able to fit comfortably in a neatly labeled box.
For those who think they have me figured out, try again. Dig deeper, and actually take the time to know me. I am not just Kena, my name is Juaquina Carter and I am as unique as my full name. I am not just a good girl who attends church on Sunday; I am a woman who loves God authentically. I may fall short and grow impatient with His will, but I will never stop pursuing a deeper relationship with Him. I am NOT a girl who goes from club to club chasing guys that aren’t worth her time; I am a woman who loves to make unforgettable memories with her friends. I know what it is like to have absolutely no joy in life, so I take every opportunity to smile and have fun within reason. I am not the twerk team; I am a dancer. I have been dancing my entire life. When the music flows through my ears joy flows out of my heart through movement. I know ballet, jazz, hip-hop, modern, tap, and yes I even know how to twerk.
It is comical that so many people think they know who I am and have no clue what I value in life. They don’t know my fears, what makes me happy, or what my goals are. Go ahead, create your label, and watch me bust out of the borders you place on me.
I am Juaquina Carter, and I cannot be defined.