The funny thing about epiphanies is they are almost always obvious answers. What we search for in the distance is sometimes right in front of us.
Something has been made very clear to me recently. I lower my standards in guys, because the men I’m actually interested in seem impossible to get close to. So, out of my fear of rejection…I settle.
I know my husband will be a man that will leave me speechless. He will be everything I didn’t even know I wanted in a guy. So, why do I loose heart when I’m around men who are more than just the status qou? As soon as I begin to develop an interest I immediately talk myself out of it. I either try to find a flaw to validate me not wanting to pursue more or, if I cannot find an obvious flaw, I just simply tell myself they wouln’t be interested in a woman like me anyways.
Wow, I have been searching far and wide for an answer to my 
terribe dating track record, and there it is staring its ugly face at me. My fears have once again impeded my progress without me even realizing. It has caused my dating life to be boring, repetitious, and a disappointment most of the time.
I might be their type. I might not be their type. We could have an indescribable connection. We might not even be able to hold a meaningful conversation. I will never know unless I take a chance for someone who actually leaves me in awe of their genuine character.
Time to stop underestimating myself. Time to stop settling.
