To Be Woman and Black

As a woman in this country I must express my sorrow. tumblr_ng1d6wxTAM1qderh6o1_500

Mike Brown. Eric Garner. Trayvon Martin. Freddie Gray.

All these men I have marched for. I have held up my hands, I have shouted for their freedom in the pouring rain, I have angrily defended the lives of black men in this country. But…what about me?

My sister. My friend. My cousin. My co worker.

All these women I have prayed for. I have cried with them when they were violated, I have talked them off the ledge of anxiety when they wanted to jump, I have waited with them to finally experience breakthrough. But…what about me?

Black men’s lives matter. Women deserve equality and respect. But what about the silent cries of the forgotten? Black women.

I remember growing up not liking the color of my skin. I didn’t think it matched my clothes, and I could only wear certain colors because of it’s hue. I have felt like a plan B in comparison to fair-skinned woman who seemed to get more attention than me. I have had to listen to guys say that black is not beautiful…in fact it is ugly, and they don’t want their kids to have dark skin. I have felt the fear of seeing a confederate flag on my neighbor’s house. I have avoided certain white adults, because I knew they looked down on me. I have viewed myself as inferior to a race this country was built for.

To be black and a woman.

To be woman and black.

What about us? What about the countless dark skinned queens I have had to convince of their own beauty. What about the depression we try to hide, because we are supposed to be the strong ones (on whom the family depends). What about us? After all the support we supply to everyone around us, who shows up to defend us? Who protects us? On whose shoulder do we lean?

Who?

To be black and a woman.

To be woman and black.

I thank God for His love and protection, because it seems I have been forgotten by the very lives I fight for.

Advertisements

About Juaquina Carter

Poet | Public Speaker | Photographer For Inquires: Juaquina.Carter@gmail.com
This entry was posted in Uncategorized and tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

4 Responses to To Be Woman and Black

  1. nosyjosie says:

    o0o do I have something for YOU to read. Trust me, you’ll love it. I was just thinking about this same issue RIGHT before I read the post I’m about to share with you. I feel as if I am the enemy to the very same group of people that I am trying to defend. Let me know what you think!

    https://abernathymagazine.com/black-men-and-distractions/

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s